Nikiah was born on the 13th of February 2004 5 weeks premature by ceasarean section.She needed oxygen after birth and was transported to RWH (ROYAL WOMANS HOSPITAL in Melbourne she was there for 12 days then we were transported back to the hopital where we live. When I was 20 weeks pregnant with Nikiah the ultrasound detected a problem with her bladder being drained properly as the tube from her right kidney was blocked. She had numerus tests that I found quite difficult to watch but I never left her side. At 3 mths of age her kidney was removed in an operation since the tube could not be repaired and the damage to her kidney was extensive it no longer functioned. The doctors said she would lead a normal healthy life which she did 4 another 3 mths. On the 30th of August 2004 Nikiah was put to bed and never woke up. The autopsy stated SIDS as a cause of death with the prior resection of her kidney being a contributing factor. Nikiah was put to bed at around 5.30 pm for a late afternoon nap as i was doing tea for her sisters, her dad went to a course he was attending and was due to be home at around 830 pm. i had her sisters fed and bathed by 7.00 pm and in bed by 7.30 pm but i didnt check on Nikiah, i didnt want to wake her up i went back into the loungeroom and was reading a book, i had the tv on mute and thought i heard her call out to me a few times but when i went up to the bedroom door there was silence so i thought i was imagining it and went back to reading. her dad got home just after 9 and i remember watching the clock since 8.30 pm i wasnt to worried as Nikiah had slept till 10 at night b4 but this night i said to her dad that she hasnt woken up since he left and he said maybe i should go check on her when i went into the room it was dark and i normally left a night light on for her but i still didnt switch the bedroom light on when i went to her cot and felt her something was wrong very very wrong she didnt look like she was sleeping and she didnt wake up when i picked her up i ran down the hall screaming to her dad he went to call triple 0 as i was left howling that my baby wasnt breathing, i dont know how her sisters didnt wake up. i was rocking her and trying to do mouth to mouth but i knew deep down it was too late. the ambulance came and then the police the ambulance guy took her from me and the police men and woman took me down the hall for what seemed forever they asked to check on her sisters and thats when it sunk in they were there cuz they thought maybe i hurt my babie and i couldnt handle it that thought made me phsically sick i said i had to go throw up and then the ambulance man came down and said 4 words that i will never forget " your baby is dead" i didnt know what to say so i just said can i see her and pushed past him they had to remove some thing they had attached to her front and back and then i held her and rocked her in total shock they sugested we go up to the hospital so we did and when we got there we were put into a room which was the second last time i would hold her a few of our friends came and the hospital organised for a photographer to come in after all that we went home without our baby and had to start to organise a funeral. i thought i was having a nightmare.